Belonging

 

New beginnings,
the freedom you yearned
has turned into another doubt
as you are still dragging
your expectations and ideals with you
that weigh you down
and make you unable
to see the opportunities of the present moment.

Hiding in the shadows of the walls you have built around you
for protection
from your fears and anxiety.
Refusing to get out
into the world
feeling like a misfit,
not being good enough to be heard,
as your doubts will follow you
no matter where you go
even though you have tried so hard
to shed them.

Worlds, and friends lost
in the distant past.
Not because what you have decided
but what has just naturally happened.
Not feeling like being seen
or being strong enough
when you try to take steps to move forward.

Lost with the meaning of the words,
sentences
and meaning of belonging.

Paralyzed, trying to find a community and some sense
into this current reality
that doesn’t feel like yours anymore.
Lost now
or just wandering in the continuous loop of survival
instead of thriving?

When and where do yo really find yourself?
When you have been stripped bare.
Not feeling like belonging,
forced to finally look inside
without getting any answers.

What do you really believe in, what moves you?
How will you face the difficulties,
how do you get up
and continue the journey
from day after day,
do you know
who you are anymore?

Are you still willing to go,
see and learn?
Start from the beginning?
Building your new reality,
not knowing if it ever will be enough for you
as your mind wanders
from past to the future.

It’s the only way to go through
as you have cut loose all the strings
that hold you in the past.
With no help,
what will open up to you
when you really accept everything
as it is
without expectations?

What will define you, your future,
what’s the real reason for you to live?
Are you courageous enough
to define your world,
your new way of being,
feeling,
sensing
and belonging.

Finding your peace
no matter where you are.
The only thing that persist
is the possibility for growth,
acceptance
and learning.